I just wanted to be happy

It's been so long since i've updated my blog. 

Tula time bosan baru la nak tercari2 blog buruk dia ni kan.. hihihi

Okayla dari takcari langsung. Haaa

But most of the sad times la i know where to go..

Where i can let out my emotions, my sadness, my sorrowfulness, my pain

of course in my precious blog.. where it all started.

My memories is all in this blog..

Tapi sayang.. 

I decided to delete all my personal stories, 

Sebab, it's not healthy..

untuk simpan benda2 yg taknak kita kenang..

Yang buat kita sedih..

But.. that's life

Kitaran hidup seorang manusia.

Lumrah

Masa gembira, masa sedih, masa jatuh cinta, masa suram..

semua tu lumrah..

Kalau nak dikenang nasib 

"why is dis all happening to me.."

Sampai kiamat takhabis..

Tapi, I'm just a normal pathetic human being..

Memang kalau boleh sampai kiamat pun nak mengenang.. haha

I just wanted to be happy, thats all

and at the same time, i feel sorry for myself...

i'm just too innocent for this..

everyday, everynight i will cry for a stupid things

sampai sakit tekak, sakit jiwa tahan sorang2

can u imagine.. its just like..

you were in a crowd of people.. but deep inside u feel so alone..

ha mcm tu.

Kadang2 rasa memang nak sorang2..

Sebab i feel more alive when im alone.

i love to be alone..

Tapi once i let someone comes into my life..

Mmg i will be the most attach person in the universe lah!

Sebab tu i susah nak move forward..

I susah nak buang that love

even if that person done so many bad things to me..

Ya Allah sungguh i am so hard to let go of someone..

tapi unfortunately for me.. 

someone yg senang2 letgo of me.

yang senang sahaja buang..

and that is the saddest thing about my life.

Yep..

i'm always be the one who kept it all inside.

And another saddest thing about me, i always blaming myself

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I just want happiness all around me.

-Thats all-